2006.08.02

and, fallen

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Oh, but it’s so hard to move him, when he’s no interest in going, even if he knows he needs to go. Sometimes, no matter how hard you try, it seems nothing short of an army will do, and you form your army, & forget to put it away when it’s not important anymore. so you use it to wash the bathroom, or grill a hamburger, which only makes for too much hamburger. Or not enough.

You keep telling yourself you’re just looking out for someone, and you forget how it is you ever asked for anything without making it a goddamned ultimatum, and well. It may be what works, but it’s all too easy to miss where a relationship of push and pull becomes one of pull, pull, pull. and that’s no good for anyone involved.

So, I’m sorry. Deeply. Because I never wanted to hurt you.

And i’ll retire that army, for good, and that means I won’t pester you about those little things. But it means I can’t be there for the big things either. Because I go in too deep, and I love too much, and

i.

just.

can’t.

anymore.


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Oh, but it's so hard to move him, when he's no interest in going, \neven if he knows he needs to go. Sometimes, no matter how hard you try, \nit seems nothing short of an army will do, and you form your army, &\n forget to put it away when it's not important anymore. so you use it to\n wash the bathroom, or grill a hamburger, which only makes for too much \nhamburger. Or not enough.

You keep telling yourself you're just \nlooking out for someone, and you forget how it is you ever asked for \nanything without making it a goddamned ultimatum, and well. It may be \nwhat works, but it's all too easy to miss where a relationship of push \nand pull becomes one of pull, pull, pull. and that's no good for anyone \ninvolved.

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So, I'm sorry. Deeply. Because I never wanted to hurt you.

And\n i'll retire that army, for good, and that means I won't pester you \nabout those little things. But it means I can't be there for the big \nthings either. Because I go in too deep, and I love too much, and

i.

just.

can't.

anymore.

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